Crawdad Capers

Yesterday I committed the sin of buying and cooking and eating something only to write about it.

And I paid.

We went to the Farmer’s Market, where Enzo became entranced with the live crawdads. We hung out for a long time watching them.

“Crabs?” said Enzo.

“Crawdads,” I said. “They’re like tiny lobsters.” And then we bought some. I had the guy tie an extra bag around them because they’d have to ride home in the bike trailer with Enzo, and I didn’t want them escaping and crawling on him, though I suspect he wouldn’t mind.

We made it home and showed Teresa. She was horrified. "I’m not even going to be in the house when you eat those. I’ll be outside eating a bowl of cereal--nice, dead cereal.”

I poured the seething, clicking mass into a big stock pot, clapped the lid on it and put it all in the fridge. I promised Enzo we would look at them again after his nap.

I was already beginning to dread the whole ordeal. What if Enzo starting thinking of them two pounds of adorable pets? Should we set them free? But where? And what if they set off some exotic species type ecological disaster? Though surely they must be a native species, since they’re here in my house and still alive. I mean you wouldn’t fly in live crawdads from Asia for the farmer’s market. Or would you? The fish stand has frozen fish with Chinese characters on the packaging.

We were stuck with each other. I opened the fridge and stared at the pot. You could hear them moving--a faint clicking. There was something so repulsive and cruel about the mass of them all crammed together, fighting for air and escape and probably at this point eating each other. I thought this was going to be so Annie Hall, and it felt like The Killing Fields. I closed the fridge and left the house. Teresa and Enzo napped.

When Enzo woke up we got out the crawdads. Enzo ran to get his chair, pulled it up to the counter, climbed up and peered into it. “We cook them?” he said.

I poured the crawdads into a big bowl and filled the stock pot with water, garlic and salt. Enzo had his elbows on the counter, chin in hands, peering at the crawdads, which were moving even more now that they were warming up. He poked one.

“Be careful,” I said.

“They bite me?”

“No, but they can pinch you with their claws.” I showed him how to pick them up, by the body. He tried that. Then we put one on the counter and studied it. They are beautiful creatures. It lifted up both claws to the sky in what seemed like a desperate, defensive fighting motion.

Enzo picked it up and put it in my grandma’s bean pot, which was standing by, mostly as a prop. (Too small for cooking crawdads.) “Enzo’s a good helper today?” he said. I said he was a very good helper. I was still dreading the moment when the seething mass went into the stock pot. Then I had an idea. I filled a plastic tub with water and poured the crawdads in so they could move about in the water.

Then they started killing each other. The water was a boiling, thrashing mass. And I realized that now I couldn’t just pour them into the stock pot. The cold water would cool down the pot. And I didn’t have a colander big enough to pour them into—I’d have to take them out one by one, by hand--or with tong, yes, tongs, thank god for tongs. Then I remembered the big salad spinner insert. I poured them into that.

By this time two very good things had happened. Enzo had lost interest and wandered off and the water was boiling. I poured the crawdads into the pot, hating them by now, which made it easier. Four spilled onto the stove top. I picked them up with oven-mitted hands and popped them in the pot, slammed the lid on and set the timer for six minutes.

When I poured them out they were bright red, extraordinarily beautiful. I liked them so much better dead. Two of them went into the sink, halfway down the drain, and while I was frantically looking for the tongs, they went down into the garbage disposal.

The problem with tongs is that it’s hard to open them to grab something when they’re thrust down a drain. I finally got a purchase on one crawdad and brought it up, slowly, slowly so that it wouldn't break apart. And then I got the other.

Enzo came back and helped me pick them apart. He picked one up and looked at it closely.

“Eyes see in the dark?”

Hell if I know.

We pulled the tails off and then prized them apart to get the meat out.

Is there a consensus on whether you eat the crawdad crap? I mean the stuff in their guts that looks like baby poop--yellowish-brown and liquidy. I tasted it, and it tasted like nothing, but I still decided to rinse off as much as the crap as I could. By the end of all this we had two small handfuls of crawdad meat. Enzo tried a bite.

“What does it taste like?” I said.

“Cai,” he said, which means calamari.

I tasted one. It tasted like pond water. We slid the carcasses into the trash.

Never again.